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TheYoMeister
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Country: United States
State: Texas
Metro: Fort Worth
Birthday: 7/8/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: Bible, Music, Yoyoing, people, hobbies, yoyos, people who yoyo, Christians, food, strange foods, foreign foods, eating food while yoyoing... (very hard), Singing, playing Xbox, Fable, Halo, yoyoing while watching others play Fable or Cart, haingin' with friends, listening to music, performing music, talking to my sister (hey Stef!), eating with friends, watching movies, talking about movies, Miricle Whip, OS yoyoing, messin' with Lunastix and learning about other fun Skilltoys...
Expertise: yoyoing, listening to others, making things that don't relate - relate, Music stuffs... maybe a little Bible stuff.. here and there.. you know?
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  JBRoxDaSox
Member Since:
11/4/2004
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| Well! It's been quite a while since I've written in here hasn't it?! I guess I'll have to back it up from when we started Ramadan then huh? Well, here goes. Ramadan was QUITE an experience! Fasting during day light wasn't so bad. When I figured out that we were doing 40 days and not 30 (for which Ramadan is only 30 days) I was a little scared. Fasting from meats on the other hand had gotten very hard. I beleive that most of what I learned over the course of the 40 days is mainly between God and I. But, I feel that I can divulge a bit. 3 major words were stressed, in order they were: Acceptance, Hope, and Fellowship. The key ingredient to having the highest level achievable for the purpose of these words would be the Holy Spirit. That's the most I feel comfortable actually spelling out on this. Towards the end of the 40 days I was having iron deficiancy attacks and needed meats, so after breaking fast with the group on Thursday night, Bobby and I went to Hammers to enjoy some spectacular Bar-B-Q. Now that Ramadan has ended, I feel that my relationship with God has grown exponentially. I guess he agreed and granted me the chance to find someone that I feel is both a gift and a reminder of God's Glory and promise. Her name is Crystal. She's beautiful, and is funny and we have a billion things in common. I can see God working on her heart, and I hope to share a Love with her that only God can grant. As Soren Kierkegaard is quoted from my dear friend Adam Brewster for saying: "To be loved, is to be helped by another person to love God." . I hope to find that kind of Love between Crystal and I. God has been the focus of my thoughts whenever I am with her, and I hope that He remains there until we both can find a way to share our Love for God with one another in a fashion that Soren is saying. As for School, I've dropped Piano and Guitar in hopes of taking Guitar again next semester when I can have the book readily available, and most likely I WON'T be taking piano. So that leaves me with Voice and Choir.. As for my future plans.. I'm still not certain. I should pray about it more. I was for sure that when I arrived back from India that God wanted me to attend CFTN. I beleive that the next step to attending there would be to expand on my instrumentations.. both of which have fell through. I'm not saying that I beleive that God will make them easy for me to achieve, but I do beleive that God has shown me that the route I took this semester was not the one He had planned for. We'll see.. Pray for me on this. As for my other opportunity for a career, I've been promoted at Brio to the position of Trainer. I get paid a whole $1 more plus perks like prefered shifts, but nothing really beyond that. This is the next step in becoming a Corporate Trainer, then a Asst. Manager then possibly an actual Manager. That would be the direction I would need to follow if I wanted to work my way up the Brio ladder. Which I have been thinking about doing.. Pray for that as well.. As for you faithful 2 (or 1?) that actually reads this, Thank You SO much! I hope there's more than just 2 of you, but oh well.. this is just as benificial for me to write out my thoughts with as it is a tool to communicate with you all. I love you and hope to share the benifits of communing in Christ again soon. -JB/Ben | | |
| This is such an interesting experience so far! I love how God can just take something as minial as meats, and truely help you realize how dependant you are on it.
A group of us at RHCC have decided to take on a "Ramadan" -like experience during the same time that it's being observed from Muslims all over the world. We pray, we follow the ideals of discipline and obedience, while at the same time obstaining from something (for me it's food during sunlight, which is a part of the Ramadan requirements, and completely abstaining from meats for the whole month.) Those who participate in the actual Ramadan abstain from food, drink, sex, and anything that isn't "pure". I try myself to "Keep it real" at all times but at this moment I've been seeing God really pump that ideal up in me. As well I'm seeing how He has taken my drive for hunger and made me more hungry for Him. Which I was expecting.. but it's nice to know that He's doing it. I find it such an encouragement that I have other brothers and sisters going through the same torments and struggles. And knowing that I can encourage them too.
God's answered my cry about loneliness.. I haven't felt it since I wrote the prayer. And so I thank Him whole heartedly for answering me in such an instantaneous manner.
As well today while I was praying with a group at CSM (Christians at TCC-NE campus meeting) my stomach was growling. we were praying around the circle and when one of the girls rebuked Satan from having any power over us in the Name of Jesus Christ, my stomach instantly stopped growling. On top of that it didn't growl at all until about 8:30 at work.. At which point the sun had definately gone down, so I grabbed a piece of flac-seed and nibbled on that until I was able to sit down and eat some Brio style Mac & Cheese. Pretty good stuff.. but not as good as I remembered Outback being for some reason. Oh well..
I was glad that I could discuss openly with the people at CSM. I've always had a problem with doing that (until recently anyway, I think India was the place where it was truely broken.) but I felt a true since of relief when I could accept and even agree with what they were saying. Knowing that preferences were being discussed, and not Doctrinal issues.
I can't really think of anything else to write about other than that I love you all very much. I know that there are so few people who still read this and I'm glad that you're still keeping up with me. I know in the past it was hard for me to communicate anything, but I feel that God has brought me to yet another level of communication and writing just seems so natural and easy. I think it's because 1. I've been reading a lot more lately.. and 2. God's just that Awesome...  Much Love Peeps!
-JB
ps. Brother Sister is SO good.. go buy it.. now.. no seriously! (it's by mewithoutYou if you didn't know.. it's my "Current Listening") as well as Angels and Airwaves, and Flyleaf. But A&A and mwY are my two favorites from my recent musical selections.
pps. God's SO awesome! and He loves you!
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| A prayer..
Oh God.. Why now.. Why now are you bringing these feelings of emptiness and loneliness into my life? At the time I feel You more than anything are you bring a feeling of nothingness in the realational aspect of my life? You know that people are my passion yet I feel I can relate to no-one.. and all I want to do is write songs about being alone. I felt so cleansed today as I cried before You and Your people at church this evening.. now I know that you meant for me to take the night off.. and to rest.
Is this the humbling experience I pray for everytime I ask for it? Is this what You're showing me?
Again I am perplexed in my awe of You, and in wonder of Your holiness.. You bring me the most joy from anything in my life, and I am to believe that your Bride is to where I am to be and whom I am to commune with, yet I feel so alone. Halleluyah Jesus! For You are the Mighty One that brings Peace to my weary soul! I'm but Your servant ever asking of more from Your commandments, begging You to continually exhust me of myself and filling this vessel of Your love and Devine Purpose. Grant me to ability to discern what it is that You want of me and the reason and purpose for these trials I face.
(There's more.. but it's between God and me.. this was the part I wanted to share with those who pray for me, so thank you for doing what you do..)
-JB
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| So is it time for an update? Si Senor..
Well.. since coming back from India God has put a TON of stuff on my heart. It's craziness.. I'm working with some friends to start another "home church" this fall season, and it's completely for outreach. Anyone who knows me also knows that I don't do outreach to well.. So God's gonna change that and I'll invite someone soon I'm sure.. <_< .. it's this Sunday.
As well God's helped me in making some career goals. I'm taking guitar lessons (LOVING it!) Piano lessons (not so much even liking it..) Voice as always (straight Ninjas!) and of course Choir. The "plan" is to become knowledgeable with these tools to enter into the world of "Music Ministry" and then continue on to pursue God's direction to me of reaching His Children of the World and blessing their lives as God has blessed mine as a Missionary. So That's what I'm doing at TCC.
As far as the world of yoyoing is going, South Central Regionals took place last Saturday and I have yet to find out the results. None-the-less, I had a totally RAWKIN' awesome time, and thoroughly enjoyed performing my freestyle which can be seen on my myspace profile. Totally rawkin'! I'm assuming though that I placed somewhere between 5-7.. hopefully.. I doubt I did so bad as to go below that.. which would totally suck, but meh.. I still had fun! Nationals though is in October.. and sadly I don't think I'll be able to afford it like I wanted to.. moving out has taken all but enough to get by with.. and Dad thinks I'll need new tires soon.. so there goes any hopes of a plane ticket to Chico. Which also happens to be where Sierra Nevada (an awesomely tasty beer) happens to be brewed.
Well as for the personal time I get I find myself reaching out to God, reading, or playing Xbox in the form of Tiger Tiger Woods, Fable, or more Tiger Woods.. I have other games.. but they're just not as fun. God's been expanding my heart which is always a good thing.. and I've enjoyed reading Blue Like Jazz by Don Miller and I'm currently reading Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell. I've been told to expect a lot from this book but also to follow what it says and truely question the words before taking them in completely. I think that's good advice for everyone to do when taking on the Spiritual realm. God is full of so much Mystery.. and I'm glad I'm learning to allow God to use His mysticism in my life. Amen?! Hallelujah..
Thanks for reading my ramblings and I'm sure I'll have times in the Library this semester where I'll write here more often. Much Love!
-JB
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| This is something that I wrote on a friends wall on Facebook of my expereinces in India. I think it made a bigger impact than I thought and, it pretty much puts the spiritual side of the trip into an easy explaination. For those who want to know more.. please email or AIM me.. I'm willing to share my experiences with anyone who's willing to have an open mind to what all happened. Or if you just have questions about India, I'll be more than happy to talk about that too. Well here's the Post.
I met Jesus this summer. He was in India playing with Children who's
parents either aren't or can't be there for them. He tought me that
love doesn't have to be just an action or a word, but it can be a
lifestyle. He showed me that His father's love is a part of every
minute aspect of the lives of His children. He also told me many things
about His plans for me. I listened and decided to follow His example of
such a lifestyle of love and take on the mission He has requested of me.
With Love
-JB
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